Inali

Inali



Inali was the second born to Asa's first litter. She was very much like Buddha in attitude often going head to head with him for leadership rights. She unlike the rest resembled a wild fox and for that reason was immediately my favorite. I gave her my Native American name "Inali" meaning Black fox despite her red coloring. I felt her red coat only made the name fit her better since my hair is also red. My family kept on me about having to find other families for the shiba's and I knew my hands were full with six shiba inus. I had even written the ad for them several times but found myself deleting it every time. For sale was just not an option. They were my babies after all. For free? No, that was too risky. I simply could not let go...

...Not until I met Ashley anyway. The setting was right, it was a family function with the usual family, family friends and friends of friends all together having a good time. I hadn't been there long before my 8 week shiba inu babies became the conversational topic and Ashley's eyes lit up as she began telling me about all the research she had been doing over the years on shiba inu's and how she dreamed of one day having her very own to love. After talking with her and getting to know her I knew in my heart that if I was to find any body that was worthy of having one of my babies it would be her. Rather I liked it or not I had to let go. 

Buddha wasn't an option that was my husbands baby and he rarely took to animals. Renji the runt of our litter belonged to Alex and I had already given Nanook my white female to my youngest son Sephiroth. I had no choice but to offer my Inali. But of course Ashley fell in love with Inali from the moment she laid eyes on her. Inali took to her right away as well. There you have it, I thought. My heart was screaming at me to simply say "mine" just as the should would and keep Inali forever but that was not the responsible thing and I knew it. 

The puppy contract we agreed to sign stated that if she could not keep Inali for any reason she would return her to me. But I knew even if I still got to see Inali from time to time at family functions she still would not be mine and that would hurt me very deeply. Still I knew that this was the right thing for the family and for Inali.
So despite my wanting to be selfish I let her go. 

Ashley and Inail are happy together. I guess I should find some comfort in that. But still there is that part of me that wishes I had of put my foot down and said "mine" for a change. But I didn't and that is something I have to live with. For better or for worse... In the end it was better for Inali. I do find comfort in that.




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